Busted Racquet - Tennis

It takes a lot to shock the 21st century sports fan. Arrests, drug use and steroid abuse have long been part of the sports culture, but with the proliferation of 24-hour sports news and the Internet, these stories have appeared so frequently that the public is numb to them. Did anybody, for instance, bat an eyelid when Manny Ramirez earned a 50-game suspension for using performance-enhancing drugs? How about when NFL players get arrested for gun or drug possession?  

Yet the Andre Agassi story managed to jolt even the most jaded of observers. It's not that Agassi used illegal drugs or that he even lied about it, although combined those facts make for a fascinating tale. No, what was most surprising about this revelation was the frank, realistic way Agassi (and his ghostwriter) wrote of the experience. Here's the excerpt again, from his forthcoming autobiography, "Open":

"Slim is stressed too ... He says, You want to get high with me? On what? Gack. What the hell's gack? Crystal meth. Why do they call it gack? Because that's the sound you make when you're high ... Make you feel like Superman, dude.

"As if they're coming out of someone else's mouth, I hear these words: You know what? F*** it. Yeah. Let's get high.

"Slim dumps a small pile of powder on the coffee table. He cuts it, snorts it. He cuts it again. I snort some. I ease back on the couch and consider the Rubicon I've just crossed.

"There is a moment of regret, followed by vast sadness. Then comes a tidal wave of euphoria that sweeps away every negative thought in my head. I've never felt so alive, so hopeful - and I've never felt such energy.

"I'm seized by a desperate desire to clean. I go tearing around my house, cleaning it from top to bottom. I dust the furniture. I scour the tub. I make the beds."

The description of the high -- from the regret to the euphoria -- is unlike anything I've read in a celebrity autobiography that isn't about drug addiction. It's real.

Normally when a celebrity in good moral standing writes of drug use it's with pangs of regret and never provides any indication that the experience was remotely enjoyable. That's not to glorify drug use or condone Agassi's actions, but there's a reason people take drugs: In that instant, it makes them feel good. We rarely hear that part of it though, usually people gloss over the details and skip straight to the insincere apology.
Here, for instance, is how Barack Obama wrote of his dalliances into illicit substances in his memoirs "Dreams of My Fathers":

"Pot had helped, and booze; maybe a little blow when you could afford it. Not smack, though."

It's candid yes, but not especially informative. When politicians or athletes speak of smoking weed, it's always considered an "experimentation" or a "phase". Some, like Obama, write about it in a straightforward way, but almost never in a probing one. Nobody talks about whether they liked it, or how they sat on the couch and laughed at informercials for three hours or tried to order a pizza but got paranoid that the CIA was listening to the call. For obvious reasons, Michael Phelps never mentioned if he enjoyed that bong hit at the time he took it.

Conversely, Agassi has described his experience truthfully, honestly and insightfully. In a nation where it's amazingly difficult to have real discussions about sensitive topics like race, drugs, politics and class, he's attempted to do so. It will earn him scorn and might cost him a few fans, but it shouldn't.

Andre Agassi is no different today than he was yesterday. He's still an eight-time Grand Slam champion, Olympic gold medalist, philanthropist and father. Those demons have always been there, they're just more out in the open. If you liked and respected Agassi before, there's no reason to change your mind now.

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  1. Coach Isiah Thompson
    1. Posted by Coach Isiah Thompson Wed Oct 28, 2009 7:00 pm EDT

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    Fear does not exist on the tennis court!
    Yes, Ag-a-sei.
    Pain does not exist on the tennis court!
    Yes, Ag-a-sei.
    Defeat does not exist on the tennis court!
    Yes, Ag-a-sei.
    An opponent faces you, he is the enemy. No mercy. We do not train to be merciful here!
    Yes, Ag-a-sei.
    Slam that volley. You got a problem with that?
    No, Ag-a-sei.
    Who stole my damn taco?
    Juan Pablo Montoya did, Ag-a-sei.
    No mercy!
  2. GUS
    2. Posted by GUS Thu Oct 29, 2009 2:41 am EDT

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    The question that I haven't seen asked thus far in all of the rush to praise his openness and candor, is ,was he using while playing tennis?
    If crystal methamphetamine had so many positive traits for him to continue using back in the late 90's and early 2000's when he won several grand slams, as he stated it did, did those positive effects carry over onto the tennis court?
    There are many reasons why people come clean about past indiscretions. There are honorable reasons and there are selfish ones. Did Andre come clean to dissuade others from going down his path? Did Mr. Agassi find religion and chose a book to serve as a vehicle for his atonement? Or, was there less noble reasons, such as Slim threatening to tell his own story of his and Andre's drug use for profit and gain? Or one similar to this.
    No matter the reason we are now hearing of his past indiscretions, the facts are he was using crystal methamphetamine during his playing career. We are also hearing he was lying to officials to get out of positive drug tests.
    Did he win matches while using? Did he win one of his 8 grand slams while under the influence of a drug that he says made him feel euphoric and gave him tons of energy? If so, how can we not revisit those matches and rewrite history concerning them?
    No matter if one is caught or simply has come clean, it is illegal and against the rules and regulations of the governing body to be under the influence of performance enhancing drugs during a match. How can we not strip him of these wins if he comes clean and admits he was using during matches to help his energy and depression?
    I loved watching Andre play tennis and I think he is a fine man who has a great family and he serves his community well by his selfless endeavors. But, we would be wrong to rob any of his past opponents on the tennis courts of their justice in these matches if these facts come to light.
    Could we blame an opponent that lost a match to him during his drug days or an official of the sport to want these questions asked and answered? If he denies that he used during matches, then without evidence, we must believe him and move on. But, if he is as forthcoming about when he used as he has been about what he used, it must be revisited.
    I applaud his candor. But, we must not excuse the offenses simply because the offender admitted to them.
    My two cents,
    GUS
  3. halosix
    3. Posted by halosix Thu Oct 29, 2009 2:43 am EDT

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    Come on...who cares!!! Still love u Agassi!!!
  4. GUS
    4. Posted by GUS Thu Oct 29, 2009 3:06 am EDT

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    Who cares? Many care Halosix.
    Maybe if it was you, your son or your father that lost to him, and he admitted to using during the match, it would be different.
    These players train their whole lives to be on those courts. They play for millions of dollars. One major win can transform their lives.
    Hopefully, he just used in 1997 when he didn't win anything anyway. That would make all the speculation mute.
    I sincerely hope that is the case. I wish it for Andre, his family, his fellow players and the governing body. I truly do.
    But you can't sweep it under the rug if that is not the case. It would be a disservice to those he played against and make the rules and regulations simply things you shouldn't get caught doing instead of rules to live by honorably.
  5. GUS
    5. Posted by GUS Thu Oct 29, 2009 3:07 am EDT

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    Who cares? Many care Halosix.
    Maybe if it was you, your son or your father that lost to him, and he admitted to using during the match, it would be different.
    These players train their whole lives to be on those courts. They play for millions of dollars. One major win can transform their lives.
    Hopefully, he just used in 1997 when he didn't win anything anyway. That would make all the speculation mute.
    I sincerely hope that is the case. I wish it for Andre, his family, his fellow players and the governing body. I truly do.
    But you can't sweep it under the rug if that is not the case. It would be a disservice to those he played against and make the rules and regulations simply things you shouldn't get caught doing instead of rules to live by honorably.
    GUS
  6. Tukes T
    6. Posted by Tukes T Thu Oct 29, 2009 6:32 am EDT

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    obviously agassi only took meth once, because if he had taken it more than once then his story of his drink being spiked would not have held up, he would have been banned if tested positive more than once
  7. gil g
    7. Posted by gil g Thu Oct 29, 2009 6:34 am EDT

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    I admire Andre for his achievement, including that great comeback from dregs to No. 1, and for what he has done for youths at risk. Steffi's always been one of my favorite persons, both for her tennis and her class on and off court. Their marriage and family for me are an outstanding case of what could go right. What bothers me about the revelations is that Andre got away with doping and lying. Without those crimes, his career would have ended. Period. His later successes would not be possible. What's the difference between Andre's guilt and those who were caught, or who admitted to wrong doing at an earlier time? Will this make miscreants more adamant in their lying denials? I am sad.
  8. gil g
    8. Posted by gil g Thu Oct 29, 2009 6:43 am EDT

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    I find it difficult to come to terms with Andre's lying. Taking the drugs may have been wrong, but could be blamed on a weakness. But lying, and building success on the basis of a lie? I'm starting to think watching sports and great achievements and great sportsmen is, in itself, an addiction. What I am feeling now is similar to what former addicts say they feel during withdrawal. What a letdown! What a [profane]ty feeling!
  9. my heart
    9. Posted by my heart Thu Oct 29, 2009 9:37 am EDT

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    And Forgive Us as We Forgive Those Who Trespass Against Us. If you can't forgive Agassi, how can you be forgiven??
  10. Vanessa
    10. Posted by Vanessa Thu Oct 29, 2009 10:38 am EDT

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    Post #2, 4 and 5 GUS, Well said.
    As many have said since this became a hot topic, "We all make mistakes, no one is perfect, etc." We all have secrets that we don't want others to find out about and would appreciate forgiveness/understanding if our sins come to light, but as much as we like Andre and admire the good he has done in his life, we cannot ignore those who have been hurt and that there should be some consequence for his actions. If there are no penalties for this, then all we are teaching some people is that if you lie about something long enough and then admit it later and ask for forgiveness, you will not be penalized. Instead, people will say how brave/courageous you are for coming forward, that you are an inspiration, that it happened so long ago it doesn't matter, etc. The moral of this story for some will be: Experiment a little, clean yourself up and then re-emerge as a hero to all. The problem with this is that, statistcially, most people are not able to clean themselves up. Andre is an exception and he needs to be very careful to send the right message about this time in his life.
  11. tennisdad13
    11. Posted by tennisdad13 Thu Oct 29, 2009 12:08 pm EDT

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    it isn't a matter of forgiving agassi, it is not our place to forgive.... he, as most have, made decisions in his life that he would like to take back, meth, brooke...lol a few others...meth did not help his tennis, if anything it hurt it, so it comes down to whether the individuals that cheered for him, can accept this or not. i am disappointed, just as i was with many of the baseball players, BUT, they took performance enhancing drugs, meth, to my understanding, is not
    just a drug for a feeling of well being or whatever excuse they use or reason to try it.
  12. billieboy
    12. Posted by billieboy Thu Oct 29, 2009 1:40 pm EDT

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    WHO in HELL CARES about AGASSI in the throes of HELL
    WITH CM EUPHORIC ? !
    It is " OLD " NEWS from a former druggie ' s perspective !
    Many many people in all walks of life experimented with all kinds
    of drugs for many many years; and nothing surprises me at all !
    Even ex - president Clinton had SMOKED SOME WEED and he is
    still fine ! Same thing with Phelps ! So weeds is less dangerous than
    CM however, ..... ummmm .....
  13. *~*Kennedy*~*
    13. Posted by *~*Kennedy*~* Thu Oct 29, 2009 3:19 pm EDT

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    Chris I gotta say I have read all the articles and comments everyone has posted about this story but yours was the absolutely best that I have read!!!!
    You are absolutely right when you say Agassi is no different today than he was yesterday. Everyone is making such a big deal over this drug use and lied he told that would have gotten him a THREE MONTH BAN at a time in his career when he was playing the worst tennis of his life.
    What I take away from these allegations is that it teaches you that a person who once made so many bad decisions that almost ruled his life can really turned their life around for the better. People grow up and they make mistakes but it is what you do with those mistakes that defines who you are. Learn from it and be a better person. The Agassi today is not the tortured soul who once sort out drugs to ease his pain or the kid who thought image was everything. He is as Chris states: "still an eight-time Grand Slam champion, Olympic gold medalist, philanthropist and father." I will also add loving and loyal husband to Steffi to this list.
  14. benjamin63_99
    14. Posted by benjamin63_99 Thu Oct 29, 2009 4:25 pm EDT

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    Obama didn't write DFMF -- his mentor William Ayres did!
    That said, Obama's handlers never tried to sell him as a goody-goody, but AgASSi handlers did, and he's a hypocrite to rail against players doping, then finally admit what everyone with half a brain knew -- that he was high on something besides life for at least 2 years while on the tour! I think the putz should be stripped of what titles/money he won during that time, and Steffi should kick him to the curb!
  15. Michael B
    15. Posted by Michael B Thu Oct 29, 2009 4:39 pm EDT

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    GUS, if you've read other stories on Agassi's bio, it sounds as if this was a one-time, or at least short-lived thing. Nothing past '97. From other stories I've read, it sounds like Agassi hit bottom and once he sent the letter asking for leniency, he straighted out his act.
  16. aintquittingsoon
    16. Posted by aintquittingsoon Thu Oct 29, 2009 5:27 pm EDT

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    The excerpt didn't explain if Andre took the substance for just that one time. But it happened when he has fallen down the ranking. It could be gathered that he stopped using the drug, went to physical conditioning with Gil Reyes, climbed back to the top to win more grand slams.
  17. GUS
    17. Posted by GUS Thu Oct 29, 2009 6:14 pm EDT

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    Michael, Andre said in his own words that he used crystal methamphetamine "a lot". So it was defintely more than just a time or two. Weather that meant he used the drug a lot in just the year 1997, or he used for a long period of time before and after writing the letter, lying to get out of a suspension, is unclear and something only Andre and maybe Slim know for sure.
    What troubles me is that CM is such a powerful drug that one who uses the drug usually doesn't go from doing no drugs, to suddenly trying such a powerful addictive drug. If Slim did indeed introduce Andre to the drug, my question would be what other drugs were present and available to him and what other drugs Andre may have done during his career. Andre marveled at the energy the drug gave him and how he cleaned his whole house in one sitting, while using. What kind of results on the court could be obtained with that much endless supply of energy had to be at least a thought that went through Andre's head.
    Did he use while playing? Again, only he and Slim know for sure. Would he risk losing one or more of his Grand Slam title by confessing to this now? Not likely. And to those who say he would never use during a match, that he wasn't that reckless, I ask wasn't he reckless by using one of the strongest illegal street drugs available in the first place and placing his storied career in jeopardy. So why is using the drug to help him in a match, when he is slumping, be such a stretch to believe?
    Again, I hope it is not true. But how can the questions not be asked and full disclosure be demanded?
    GUS
  18. Mike
    18. Posted by Mike Thu Oct 29, 2009 8:46 pm EDT

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    Is Agassi's legacy hurt?
    Nah, a little "Gacked" maybe , but not hurt.
    We humans are forgiving lot.
  19. anon
    19. Posted by anon Thu Oct 29, 2009 9:10 pm EDT

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    I love how everyone is so shocked, as if everyone in the world are so perfect. MOST people are f***-ups who haven't achieved or contributed to the world one iota of what Agassi has. We ALL knew he was a f***-up around '97, this is not new. Anyone who criticizes him is a moron in my book. That includes Federer, Nadal, and Martina Navratilova. My opinion of all of them just fell. The drug suspension rules are ridiculous. Taking crystal meth as an athlete is like being in a wheelchair. It's a complete disadvantage. Agassi already paid his dues. Personally I'm impressed he was able to beat anyone with such a disadvantage.
  20. dan
    20. Posted by dan Thu Oct 29, 2009 9:23 pm EDT

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    why do u have to tell the world your dirty little secret? to sell the book? to create controversy and be talked upon in the internet? agassi is selling himself as a philantropist with a good heart and a hero and a role model to the youth. this news about taking drugs does not sit well on his image and may be the highlight of his indiscretion. there are things in life that you should not anymore divulge especially for people we look up the most. in the long run, the cons outweights the pros on this drug revelation. what do u think?
  21. Ritchie
    21. Posted by Ritchie Thu Oct 29, 2009 9:34 pm EDT

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    Agassi is the most perfect tennis player that ever lived. It is really sad when somebody you hold so high falls off the pedestal. I did not think he was capable of committing such a grievous offense.
    (I do hope people catch on to my post's sarcasm. I don't like that he lied either but you know what, he who hasn't sinned, cast the first stone.)
    Tennis has been a relatively clean sport. Think of all the great tennis memories he has provided us from 1998-2006. What other american tennis player (outside of the WIlliams sisters) have put the sport in the forefront and made us care, cheer and gave us joy? No one else.
    I can see Nadal and Federer's point because it does taint the sport a little bit. But Navratilova putting Agassi in the same "league" as Clemens, c'mon. She is probaly just jealous because she's the winningest tennis player ever but people don't really care about her and just sees her as a controversial player, she's not nearly loved as much as Agassi is in the U.S..
  22. J G
    22. Posted by J G Thu Oct 29, 2009 9:38 pm EDT

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    Who cares!
  23. Portillo67
    23. Posted by Portillo67 Thu Oct 29, 2009 11:15 pm EDT

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    i like Agassi more now.
    Navratilova, ignorant and resented because nobody cares about her.
    Nadal, plainly stupid, with the brain of an ant.
    Federer, playing his good image, not so stupid but hypocrite.
  24. Portillo67
    24. Posted by Portillo67 Fri Oct 30, 2009 12:10 am EDT

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    Agassi“s taking whatever he wants is his business. It has nothing to do with the game since it is not performance enhancing substance.
    People is so ready to judge others.
    That explains why Nadal still lives with his parents, he is a little boy who lacks any idea of the real world. He is a good player, but an insignificant human being.
  25. ma_pratt
    25. Posted by ma_pratt Fri Oct 30, 2009 2:32 am EDT

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    Guys,
    Andre is a great guy and does much good, but a cheat is a cheat and Crystal Meth these days carries a 2 year ban! That is 8 grand slams! and possibly 32 other tournaments!
    Andre should have shut up and found a more creative way to sell his book!
    http://tenniscruz.com

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