Matt Harvey was disappointed in his final years with the New York Mets as he eyes a return to form at the Los Angeles Angels.
After starting his career on fire with New York and in the conversation for Cy Young awards, 2013 MLB All-Star Harvey was traded to the Cincinnati Reds after going 0-2 with a 7.00 ERA in eight appearances with the Mets in 2018.
Just three years before, Harvey underwent surgery to relieve symptoms of thoracic outlet syndrome and still wonders if he should have waited longer to come back.
"I was getting to the point that I was just doing more damage to myself and to what I wanted to accomplish," Harvey told reporters on Wednesday. "I was really just fighting against myself. It was me who was disappointed in what I was not able to bring to the team and to the city of New York at the time. It was me who was beating myself up. That was the tough part."
Harvey went 7-7 in 24 starts as a Reds player with a 4.50 ERA. He signed a one-year, $11million contract with the Angels this offseason.
Harvey is trying to build on the bit of success he had toward the end of 2018, when he posted three quality starts over his last five outings.
"I think everybody is kind of guilty of having two good starts and then you kind of take a little bit off and you can kind of relax a little bit," he said. "I think remembering how much it hurt to fail all the time, those two starts that I did have success I worked just as hard as if I was mad from a bad start. … I wish I had someone who told me that when I was 23 years old. Now I can write a book of mine and say, ‘Do more.’"
The 29-year-old will slot into a rotation which features other former top prospects who have had ups and downs in their careers. Harvey has experienced some of the same things and is trying to learn from his mistakes of the past.
"That's part of the spark and fire you can light and re-light," Harvey said. "It's about going out and performing. You can always want to get back to where I was before or pitching in the World Series, but you have to go out and do it. You can think it, but you have to go do it."